i had one of those grumpy weekends.
you know, when you feel like you just suck at everything.
we might be able to blame it on hormones.
it finally all unleashed last night at home with my roomie,
when she turned on a sappy country song,
and suddenly big crocodile tears were leaking out of my eyes.
and i thought,
"i suck at everything and only the wrong boys like me and my laundry is never folded and why do my desk plants always die."
so i went outside and floated in the pool.
and then i took a hot shower.
and drank my pumpkin spice hot chocolate.
and today my head remembers that i'm good at stuff.
like writing.
i got a 10-percent raise last week.
and i'm really good at liking the olympics.
and being loyal to michael phelps.
i'm also good at buying goodwill clothes.
i also made healthy food on saturday to last me all week.
and i'm good at liking greek yogurt.
and i went running this morning.
so, you know.
i don't suck at everything!
...maybe you need to remind yourself of the same?
what are you good at?
what are you good at?
did i mention i love michael phelps,
This post reminded me of one of my favorite Steinbeck quotes. Kinda long but kinda awesome:
ReplyDeleteOnce Ed said to me, "For a very long time I didn't like myself." It was not said in self-pity but simply as an unfortunate fact. "It was a very difficult time," he said, "and very painful. I did not like myself for a number of reasons, some of them valid and some of them pure fancy. I would hate to have to go back to that. Then gradually," he said, "I discovered with surprise and pleasure that a number of people did like me. And I thought, if they can like me, why cannot I like myself? Just thinking did not do it, but slowly I learned to like myself and then it was alright."
This was not said in self-love in its bad connotation but in self-knowledge. He meant literally that he had learned to accept and like the person "Ed" as he liked other people. It gave him a great advantage. Most people do not like themselves at all. They distrust themselves, put on masks and pomposities. They quarrel and boast and pretend and are jealous because they do not like themselves. But mostly they do not even know themselves well enough to form a true liking. They cannot see themselves well enough to form a true liking, and since we automatically fear and dislike strangers, we fear and dislike our stranger-selves.
Once Ed was able to like himself he was released from the secret prison of self-contempt.
(Ed was Ed Ricketts, Steinbeck's best friend.)
DeleteI like that quote very much. I think in a larger sense I can apply it to how I felt about myself in jr high/high school before I sorted myself out better in college/post-college...but I still have days that it can apply, like we probably all do. I will probably come back and look at this -- thanks for sharing!
DeleteThanks for the link to that talk.
ReplyDeleteDon't let the weirdos get you down! The right weirdo will come along...I swear it! But it's hard not to see that you're awesome when those seem to be abundantly coming your way!
ReplyDeleteAnd props for the raise- you SO deserve it!
thanks for providing a link to that talk by Elder Holland. Something I definitely needed to read :)
ReplyDeleteI love this! You most certainly do not suck at everything!
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