a spiritual awakening

this is another link-up to the weekly journal prompt,
via the lovely and endearing harley & jane.

catch my previous entry here.

this week's theme:

a spiritual awakening

i have quite a few to choose from,

but here's what i finally settled on...

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"i guess i just want to be good."

the words were his, not mine.

perched on a log by a campfire,

wrapped in a plaid blanket,

his knee leaning against mine,

the hum of 10 other conversations buzzing around us.

it was summer in utah.

i'd known him for a week,

but it was one of those things,

where conversation just spills out of you with a mind of its own.

and so we talked.

we talked and talked.

i can't remember what i asked him,

but i do remember his answer.

"i guess i just want to be good."

fresh out of my teenage years,

when everyone wanted to be a little edgy,

a little rebellious,

a little bit bad...

his words were new to me.

he wanted to be good.

he wanted that lifestyle.

he wanted that reputation.

the fire popped and i shuffled my sneakers in the dust.

and i decided.

i wanted to be good, too.

i later found this inspired quote,

which, when i heard it,
the words stole into my soul and simply said:

"yes. that's it right there. that's who you need to be."

"I will not consent to any influence from the adversary. I have come to know what power he has. I know all about that. But I also have come to know the power of truth and of righteousness and of good, and I want to be good. I'm not ashamed to say that -- I want to be good. And I've found in my life that it has been critically important that this was established between me and the Lord so that I knew that He knew which way I committed my agency. I went before Him and said, 'I'm not neutral, and you can do with me what you want. If you need my vote, it's there. I don't care what you do with me, and you don't have to take anything from me because I give it to you -- everything, all I own, all I am,' and that makes the difference."
Boyd K. Packer

just a little moment of decision,

by a campfire,

at age 19.

and it somehow ended up meaning everything.

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i love how many of you participated last week!
go check out harley & jane's entries,
and then link up your own!

looking forward to reading.

awake,
katilda